Hope

Today, like everyother sunday, was church. However, today was also Fast Sunday. and no that doesn't mean that it goes by faster. Fast Sunday is a day, once (sometimes twice) a month when Latter-Day Saints that choose to, sacrifice eating for 24 hours. but it is more than just giving up food for the heck of it. we pray before our fast to dedicate it to our Lord, Jesus Christ, and for a specific purpose. it also means a chage of pace for our weekly meetings. on fast sunday, instead for two or three people being asked by our Bishopric to speek, the time is left open for anyone in the congration who wants to, to come to the pulpit to bear their testimonies.

many of the speekers that got up before me repeated a word that really made me think. Hope. hope is a word that can mean a lot of different things to a lot of differnt people. it is both a verb and a noun. it is something that we can have or do. as i sat there and listened to the others, i got to thinking what gives me hope. as i stood up to bear my testimony, i fealt impresed to share my feelings about hope.

hope has great meaning to me. there was a time in my life, not too long ago, when hope was all that i had. i made some very serious mistakes that hurt a lot more people than just those that i wronged. i still have doubts as to whether or not i will ever be able to get over the guilt that i feel. somtimes the guilt was so much, death seemed like the only course left to me. but hope that someone could one day forgive me was enough to get me through. bearly, but enough. several years have past since the mistakes were made. one of the families that i hurt has since woved far away. the other lives in a part of town where i never see them. i still can't bring myself to face either. but the hope in a loving and forgiving Savior and Heavenly Father that i have allows me to at least move these thought to the back of my mind until the day that i am able to face these families.

another thought that was shared with me came before church. My Elders Quorm President came over to my house to share a Home Teaching message with me. the message was simple, but powerful. in an article that he passed on to me was this simple quote, "Jesus Christ is like the Polar Star." it said many other things, but this passage sturck my mind the most. Jesus Christ is not just like the North Star to everyone. He is MY Polar Star. even when i stray as far as i have from His path, He is still there. No matter where, no matter when He is there to guide me back.

A Death

Yeah, right after i start my blog, my car dies. i was driving to drop off my little brother at his high school drama "Tech Day" when the engine suddenly gives out. poor kid had to walk the rest of the way, while i waited for him to get there, get a cell phone, and call my dad and tell him to come and help. yes, i do have my own cell, and yes i did charge it at night, BUT NOOOOOO......i had to not bring it the ONE time this thing quits on me. but this car has been a lemon since i first bought it off of my friend's parents. $1600.00 for the car and already i have put $3100.00 into reparis on this thing.

but enough of that stuff. today was otherwise ok, another build-a-thon for my Tau. also mixed in there was some cleaning of the disaster area i call my room, and a little bit of some Burnout 3.

A Genesis

I am a little behind the times, but this is my first blog. For those of you who are wondering, the title comes from a combination of one of the many mini war games that I play, and my family background. Scotts rule!!!!

Any who, life today consisted of gaming. I play a total of 3 mini war games, a dozen or so video games, and 3 collectible/trading card games. Today was a build-a-thon for my Tau Empire army for Warhammer 40k. pics to follow. I love my digital camera.