now i can think

now that ive had some time to think about the big move i made to move out, it may not have been the financialy sound thing to do but it was the right "ME" thing to do. i have less stress, there's less stress between me and the rest of my family, and i can finally have some room to spread out. the only real problem about all this is my job. the money is ok, but the work really isnt. i did recently recieve a minor promotion to occasionally drive a fork-lift. but on those days that i dont i still feel, i dont know ,like out of place. not like i was meant for WAY better, but something that i could support a family on. i can barely cover my self. the really big problem with all of this the fact that i want to do some kind of schooling, but working from 4 pm to midnight automatically cancels most options to still work full time. the only morning options are medical assiting and the like and that is not me. i want to work with computers or something like that. any way, i feel like im rambling now.

another benfit of this move is that im closer to the local shop, so if i ever calm my life down to a point where i can actually go in it is within bikeing distance. i feel like im missing out on that stuff lately. GEEZ, im rambling again!!! ive been doing that a lot lately.

now on to my current political issue. SOCIALISM IS NOT THE ANSWER!!!!!!!!! i fully agree with obama that change is needed within the heathcare system, but one need only to look to the Swiss to know that it doesnt work. haveing to wait MONTHS for needed care for no better reason then becasue there are FORMS to fill out and file. isnt that what doctors do. i dont agree with obama's belief that government control of everything is the answer. if that goes as far as it has in other times in the past we are not that far from totalitarinism. and a lot of people say that us mormons believe in the exact same system. first off, the law of concecration (which is the system i was reffering too) is mostly volutary. and it isnt one man in power saying whats fair and whats an even split, its the church as a WHOLE providing for the WHOLE as ONE PEOPLE.
and this whole prop 8 and DOMA issuse is really starting to get to me. first off let me state that i have ABSOLUTLY NOTHING AGAINST GAY PEOPLE!!!!!!!! it doesnt disgust me, it just isnt what i believe to be natural. i have heard of many stories of gay men and women turning from those ways because they truly felt that being straight is right. and i understand that urges of that kind of nature are very hard to resist. i have gone through dealing with similar issues in my past. but all that aside, i do think that the answer to all of this is to not word any unions as marrige and not exclude same-sex couples from spousal rights. if two people are together and know each other, they should have the power to make the tough decisions for each other. just make them all civil unions and get on with life. it isnt an issue that should divide this great country founded on freedom. the issues we should be foucusing on are threats to our freedom, no matter where they come from, and the economic future of the U.S. and the world as a whole. if we cant come out from under this recession on top, then the furture is shaky.

LIFE, just how long has it been......

WOW!!! its been a eally long time since i last posted here. A lot has happened since November. I moved out, into my own little studio. I now have to pay my own bills. My little Intrepid, "River" as she was know, got scrapped and replaced by a Chevy Cobalt, "Rena." So yeah, lots of money out of pocket before i really ever see it.

As far as my gaming stuff goes, it hasnt. i havent been into the shop for a game since i moved out in febuary. im actually really starting to miss it. but life has just ben so crazy lately. any who, thats that for now.